After a couple of conversations I realize that everything I am trying to do with my job, family, health, and life in general can fit easily into the category of a hustle. It’s not discouraging or meant to be inspiring, it just is what it is. I’ve realized that I can get comfortable not easily but I can eventually. The only way around that is to remind yourself of your “why?”. It sounds easy when I put it like that but it’s not that straightforward.
The meditation today was major distraction. I don’t know when I will really be at a position to say that I was lost in serene understanding of what I am and how I connect with this universe. I don’t know if I ever will, though the effort continues. At least I can sit for 10 minutes without any major hiccups and I can even say that I’m expecting to take it forward to 20 minutes. All this sounds constructive until I am made to realize perhaps I need meditation.
I didn’t write since quite a few days. It might seem like I was off track. The truth is far from it. I have reigned in almost all of the distractions in my life. My life that is basically a preparation to die in peace, maybe not just for me, but for me and my loved ones. Maybe that was the goal always. Spread your seed, do the deed that life wants you to and then perish, but gently and then rest in peace.
At any rate, while I might not be supporting life in it’s mission I know the clock is ticking for me and my loved ones. This is why each day is a grind and inspired by a few people on the internet I make sure that I rise with a renewed hope to earn the sunrise. With that thought, here’s my progress tracker. The days I’m not successful at doing what I should be doing I call myself out.
The BJJ restarts next week. Running is still on the backseat because my ankle is hurting but after BJJ starts running may or may not start in parallel.
Love and Peace,
I shouted out aloud, Fuck!… and my bottle fell to the ground. This was the second time in two weeks but… Just kidding I struggled through it but didn’t let it hold me back