Today was another hectic day. At work it seems that leadership wants the materials quicker and yet folks are leaving the project rather than staying on. I like this intense part of the project perhaps because everyone is super focused and I can’t afford distractions.
Talking about focus, starting continuously at the screen has been showing it’s affects on my eyes. I’m probably headed to a pair of glasses and weakened eyes. I don’t know if I can or want to do anything to avoid that situation.
The day started with Jiu-Jitsu so it wasn’t going anywhere but down from there. However, when you start the day with learning to choke fools and get choked there isn’t much that’s shaking the Earth under your feet. Unfortunately, it is getting so much harder to take out time for anything besides work. A part of me knows that the more I’m giving to this work the further away I’m getting from it. Not because I don’t like hard work but because I know I’m not getting my due.
This brings me to the ongoing thought about starting my own thing. I know I have the skills but do I have the perseverance? Isn’t this the time when I pursue something that really energizes me? I’m now almost relieved of financial burdens and should pursue something more meaningful without being tied to anything.
I don’t know what to think about them but they have definitely made me think about thinking.
Today was interesting to point at something that wasn’t supposed to be there. I wish this sense of calm that the body feels would be ever present. Not for me but the body. Are those two experiences separate? I don’t know
Perhaps this new state of continual introspection will help me in my new role at work. The new year will be a new job but it’ll be more than that. I know 2022 will be special. I’ll be able to do things that will rise the tide for everyone around me.
Technically still day one for me because I haven’t yet slept. So, happy new year. Day 0 was crazy but day 1 was great. Did a few things today:
– the zoo
– the movie at home (netflix and chill, but not really netflix)
– writing this blog
In the middle of all that was a nice 5K run and some weights. Tomorrow I jump on the excel sheet bandwagon for maintaining a schedule for my workouts again. And then I also have to maintain a list of things I need to do:
– Work towards immigrating somewhere for good
– Start recording my podcast again (I’ve been paying them $5 for the past 5 months or so)
– progress in BJJ
– and then Yoga for BJJ
Those are my big goals for the year. The daily goals will be more detailed but will address those larger goals.
Are you reading?
Love and Peace,
I didn’t write since quite a few days. It might seem like I was off track. The truth is far from it. I have reigned in almost all of the distractions in my life. My life that is basically a preparation to die in peace, maybe not just for me, but for me and my loved ones. Maybe that was the goal always. Spread your seed, do the deed that life wants you to and then perish, but gently and then rest in peace.
At any rate, while I might not be supporting life in it’s mission I know the clock is ticking for me and my loved ones. This is why each day is a grind and inspired by a few people on the internet I make sure that I rise with a renewed hope to earn the sunrise. With that thought, here’s my progress tracker. The days I’m not successful at doing what I should be doing I call myself out.
The BJJ restarts next week. Running is still on the backseat because my ankle is hurting but after BJJ starts running may or may not start in parallel.
Love and Peace,